Love/Hate Relationship With Food

For those of you who know me really well know that I have major food issues!! I love food! I could eat all day. I have struggled with my weight since college. I graduated high school weighing around 120 and the end of my 1st year of college I probably weighed close to 150! No Freshman 15 here!! I then lost about 20 of that and was happy at my 130; however, it didn't stay off. I gain and loose weight constantly.

I eat well, but my problem is the closet eating. I will eat when no one is awake, or grab something on the go. I don't even have to be hungry to eat!! It is the death of me.

I ran a half marathon 2 years ago and my stamina was great! Now, I can't imagine running one!! I became very close to my ideal weight right before I got pregnant with Jackson! The 25 lbs I gained are slowing coming off, but I still am not happy. I am working on trying not to put pressure on myself to get rid of the pounds. I am finding that that is helping. I am giving my self the goal of losing 1lb a week. I am proud of myself though; I did eat some Easter candy on Sunday, but have not touched it since then!!

I bought a Wii Fit and used it for a month, but after returning to work in January I haven't touched it. So, I pulled it out last night and did 30 minutes of it!! It was great and I felt great afterwards. Jason and I are going for a run today when I get home and I am looking forward to spending that time with him. He has been very supportive through all of this and I love him for it. He encourages me when I cry and praises me when I feel accomplished.

I am working on becoming the best Amy, inside and out.