Trying...

In January people tend to make a lot of resolutions, and then these resolutions are never met. I never make resolutions because I know I will never follow through with them; however, this year I vowed to be a better person. Not that I don't think I am a good person, but there are variables in my life that make it so hard. I know I am a good to my family and friends, but I tend to be critical and negative about certain things/people.

There are some negative variables ( there is a reason I use this term ) in my life that no matter what I do, "they" will always be there. I tend to get obsessive over them too. I will think and think and think about it all the time. I get anxiety when I think I have to face "them". I am not sure why they are so negative and it is something that I have questioned, not just myself, but others, as to why this happening. Of course, no one has answers.

I have prayed for the strength to move on, I have tried to resolve the issues, and I have tried to block out. I just don't know why none of this has worked!! I did find some solace this weekend though; I have decided that I am NOT going to allow negative PEOPLE or THINGS in my life. I honestly feel if I stay clear of all thing/people negative, my life will be so much better. I will not be able to obsess over them if they are not there.

So, that is my VOW, not a resolution, to not allow negative things/people into my life. I will pray for the people and for the people who do negative things in hopes that they will see the wrong doing in their actions. I think God has taken me on this LONG journey to see this and to see that I can't fix everything, only HE can. So, I leave it up to HIM to deal with.

"The things which are impossible with men are possible with God" Luke 18:27