Woes of Pregnancy

When people talk about wanting to have babies, most don't think of pregnancy; most think of what comes after the 9 months of pregnancy. And, once a woman has a baby, she normally waits a few years to have another one. During this "waiting" period a condition called "pregnancy amnesia" happens. This is when the woman has forgotten all the bad things that come with pregnancy and delivery.

When I became pregnant with Jay I was ELATED. I had a miscarriage before him, but didn't even realize I was pregnant until AFTER the miscarriage. So, when I got pregnant with Jay, I could not wait to experience every second of this new life Jason and I had created. I did have some issue with his pregnancy, but he came into the world at a healthy 8 pounds and 6 ounces.

14 months later I found myself pregnant again; however, at 6/7 weeks I miscarried. I was devastated, even though we had not planned it. We tried for 6 months after the miscarriage and I finally became pregnant with Jackson. Now, by this time the "pregnancy amnesia" had set in. I totally forgot about all the bad things that come along with pregnancy. Even when pregnant with Jackson, I had to keep looking back at the journal I kept for Jay to see if things were the same!! Jackson was a scheduled C-section, so his delivery was slightly different than Jay's. I had to get a spinal with Jackson and the spinal made me so nausea! But, in the end I had another baby boy weighing in at 7 pounds and 11 ounces.

Now, for this pregnancy, it had not been long enough for this "pregnancy amnesia" to kick in. So, when I stared at the HPT with my jaw on the floor, all the bad pregnancy things came rushing back. I could not think about one good thing about being pregnant again!! So, as I sit here at 24 weeks pregnant, the disadvantages come to me:

1. Nausea- I have been pretty lucky with this one. I had some nausea off and on in the beginning, but nothing to crazy.
2.Boobs- my boobs are big to begin with, but with this pregnancy they are massive and in the way! Oh, and they hurt like hell.
3. RLS- yes, I get Restless Leg Syndrome when pregnant. I basically twitch all night.
4. Back ache- with each pregnancy I get really bad lower back pains. If I sit, or lay down for too long, I have to stay bent over for like 10 minutes while my muscles loosen up. I look the Hunchback as I make my way to the bathroom.
5. Speaking of bathrooms, pee- I pee way too much. And once the baby is big enough, and forgive me for being crude, there is so much pressure on your bladder, that you (me anyways) has to lean forwards to empty your bladder. I don't remember (amnesia) it being like that for Jay, but def. for Jackson and Turtle. Plus, I have to pee NON stop.
6. Headches- ALL THE TIME
7. Exhaustion- ALL THE TIME
8. Emotional- Jason would say all the time, but I normally have a few break downs with each pregnancy.
9. Feeling fat- with Jason and Jackson I gained under 25 pounds. Before getting pregnant with Jackson I had lost a good bit of weight, so his pregnancy was great. I had not lost all the weight with Jackson when I got pregnant with Turtle, so I feel like a beast right now. Esp. since my boobs are huge, that doesn't help.
10. Food- right now I go between wanting to eat all the time and not wanting to eat all. It is crazy, my mind can't seem to make it's mind up (ha!). Plus, I am starting to get to the state where the baby is getting bigger, so when I DO eat, I can't eat much or I will be miserable. And everyone knows how much I LOVE food. We have a love/hate relastionship.
11. Spinal- when I had the spinal for Jackson I thought I was going to die right there. It was so painful and it made me so nausea. I was trying to figure out how I was going to throw up not being able to feel from the chest down!! I still cringe when I think about it and don't look forward to it at all. Now, I don't recall the epidural with Jason, once again, amnesia.

So, these are just some of the woes I have about pregnancy and they come at me stronger this time because the amnesia had no time to set in. All I do know, is that there is NO amnesia when it comes to the moment your baby is born. I remember exactly everything that happened when Jason and Jackson were born. Those moments were the greatest moments in my life. I am thankful that there isn't a "birth amnesia", maybe a "delivery amnesia". I look forward to when Jacob comes into this world. I can't wait to see if he looks like Jay or if he looks like Jackson. All in all, I may complain about the hardships of pregnancy, but in the end, it is truly worth every second of it.

Oh yeah, and the waddling sucks too! =)